There are so many parts of me and they all keep getting on top of each other and its doing my head in.

A strong one - she is what is making me get the strength to post today and try and be adult about it all and reach out.

A caring one - she wants to be here for ppl on the forum to support and make friends.

A little one - she wants hugs and ppl to look after her whatever she does or says.

An alone one - she thinks she doesn't need ppl and can cope with her illness all by herself.

A give-up one - she has had enough and wants to lay down and not care about anything or anyone anymore.

A deep thinking one - she thinks about every thing including 'the forum experience' so much and in so much detail.

A searching one - she is looking for something or someone that will help her to see the meaning in what this life is all about.

A creative one - she loves making things and has so many great ideas for new projects.

A silly one - she loves being like a kid, playing with her kittycats, talking silly stuff and dancing.

An ill one (depression and ME/CFS) - she has ups and downs, permanent aches and brain fog.

A worthless one - she is small and is almost invisible, dosent want anyone to notice her.

Are there any more ? Probably. I just wanted to get it out to you. Feeling so fed up with it, I want to talk about it all but everything I do at the moment brings on all the migraine/aching/exhaustion crap plus all the guilty feelings and paranoia.

'you haven't posted for ages' or 'nobody wants to hear about you' on and on......

Just wanted to reach out to you today, at least I have done something positive by doing this but even as I write the urge is strong to delete it all.

I'm going to do it quick before I can change my mind.

(((((((((((hugs to all))))))))) Poppet