Thank you so much for your advice and compassionate words!

I do know I need help... the question is how to get that help...

The life for me and my family is really complicated because of our son feeling so bad.

I keep searching for the right help and resources... but...

I feel like throwing in the towel... but somehow I keep going...

I feel like an idiot writing a post crying out for help and you all trying to give me advice and still I can't get that help in this country with a so called "good healthcare system". It sucks!