Moonkin your T sounds very nice. Some T's when seen in public don't
even acknowledge you as a patient unless your seeing them by appt.

What makes you think or gives you the idea that she's going to give up
on you? It sounds like to me that she is really interested in how you are
doing.

Maybe its just your own inner thoughts? Sometimes I tend to read into
situations and realize later that I was just panicking.

Moon as far as suicide, PLEASE, call a hot-line or talk with someone here
you can trust or are closer too! Trust me its not the answer, I know from
personal experience.

Your bright, educated and sometimes it takes times to work and figure
things out about ourselves......!

Your always welcome to Pm me if you have those thoughts...there are
many suicide sites on line to you can participate in.