Back in 2007 I was hospitalised for Depression and a suicide attempt. I was
very lucky because a friend had found me in time. I was in a coma for 4 days
and developed a really bad case of aspiration pnemounia. Again I was lucky
that I woke up and survived. I had hallucinated for many days after even after
I woke up. I had Benzodiazapine poisoning, from an over-dose of Valium.
After I made a complete recovery I was transferred to a psych hospital for
2 weeks. There I attended classes every day and was put on a anti-depressant
called Remeron. It seemed to relax and help stabilize my moods, helped me
sleep and lessened my anxiety. I was also given Seraquel for anxiety and
mania.
Eventually I came home and I agreed to attend support groups. Well I never
did get to any support groups. I did find Psych Central which helped alot.
Although as time went on I started to drink again along with using my
medication because I felt myself slipping into depression and having thoughts
of ending my life once again.
At the time I was unaware that you needed to stay on anti-depressants for a
good 3 months or more to get the full effect or relief from depression.
Drinking with my medication just made things worse for me. Many nights I was
in chat and there were times where I don't even remember what I said or who I
had chatted with. The next day/morning most of the time I remembered very
little. It was a big mistake on my part!
This summer of 2008 I gave up the drinking completely, stayed on my meds, and
have recovered and learned from my mistake.
I Do want to say that if I had posted anything out of line last year or
disrespected anyone in chat I send my sincere apologies.
Another reason I am posting this is to let people know to give their medications
long enough to work before getting discouraged. I been wanting to post this for
along time just to get it off my mind and to let others know what I went through
last year.
Ending on a good note I am happy to say that my depression is under control,
and I am handling and managing life so much better these days, and still
giving care to my mom who has Interstitial lung disease and has very bad
dementia. The care that she is getting now is much better and I have made
peace with her from things that have happened between us in the past (abuse,
neglect etc..).
Thank you for reading, listening and just being here for me now and in the
past when I was a little crazy or a lot crazy (Off the walls)..LOL..!
I learned alot but it took me awhile to share and grow, but now I am happy
I did.