I'm a newbie here, but it's nice to hear your story. A great thing about being human is that you can make mistakes and people understand...heck, I think people understand those who make mistakes better than those who get things perfect...at least I do. Life can be tough, and sometimes we're just barely in control of our powerful faculties.

As for the meds, I once was on Luvox for OCD, though it was a bit much for me so I eventually dropped it. I do remember the exact moment, however, around 3 months after I started taking them, when they felt like they "kicked in." I don't know if it's like that for everybody, but I can seriously pin the exact moment down when I felt like my brain was working differently.

Good luck to you as you keep on the road to recovery.