Getting clean is one of the hardest things you can do, but in my opinion is really worth it. Since you only stopped the pills 2 days ago, at least part of what you're feeling is probably withdrawl, so try to ride it out for at least a week.

In some ways travelling is a perfect opportunity to get a good start on being clean, since you're away from your usual supply and can more easily avoid places / people that are triggers to use. If you want support, outside of your friends, you might try finding local narcotics annonymous meetings to go to - they're pretty much in all major cities.

When I stopped drinking I found the first couple of months the hardest - my brain was still in a fog ffrom adjusting to not having all the booze, I was seriously depressed, and I jsut wanted to drink. But I stuck it out and am really glad I did - no more hangovers, no more wondering what I'd done the night before, no more wasted money, plus it's pretty amazing how quickly you start to look and feel physically better.

Cocaine can mess you up pretty badly plus it's illegal which makes it risky. Obviously only you can decide if you want to be clean, but getting sober was for me one of the best decisions of my life, and it has been totally worth the first horrible few months.

Good luck.

--spltimage