Oh, things have gotten all messed up...
Jon's doing well - it's Jonathan and Jonny who are having a rough time.

For some time now, they've felt threatened by something they call "the Big Guy" - someone big and strong and violent who's out to hurt them all. Whenever he shows up, there's always a huge fight and someone gets hurt. They can usually force him to leave, but I've "seen" them wear themselves out to the point that they have to go away and heal for several days.

There's one particular manifestation of J.T. who's more able than anyone else to handle this guy - the one I've come to know best. I think he has the most power against the Big Guy because I suspect that the Big Guy is actually another J.T.

Day before yesterday, the Big Guy came back hard and (from what I could tell) it was a real battle. Eventually, it was over...with some collateral damage.The Guys tell me that Jonathan managed to kill the big Guy, but that in doing so, he killed their friend J.T. as well. He's really torn up about it, as is Jonny. They're inconsolable...and Jonathan is feeling especially guilty. He knows he did what he had to do to protect everyone, but he feels really guilty that two persons died at his hands.

I don't even know what to say. I'm still not sure whether or not alters CAN be killed and I am sure that it was self-defense. I just wish I knew what I could do to help.

It can be really scary, though. Whenever they were fighting, Jon was physically going through it all - sometimes from both perspectives. The only thing I could do was make sure that he didn't get hurt. Make sure that he didn't fall to the floor too hard, keep him breathing, keep dangerous objects away - that sort of thing...It's scary sometimes.

But on a better note - we might have found an affordable (but well-recommended) T that can take him. My T gave me this lady's name for Jon, and he recommended a clinic he works with for me (cause I can't afford therapy right now). Hopefully, there will be treatment for all.

Again, thanks for listening. Thank you so much, all of you.