EM, did you and T work on what is going on with this "he loves you" stuff? My gut is telling me that you have some pretty intense thoughts and feelings about this that you just won't admit so this is what is driving you to SI to get some relief. This is my theory: You hate yourself. T loves you. You are having major cognitive dissonance with this. You cannot get these two thoughts to jive. One has to change and the T isn't budging. Therefore, you have to change how you feel about yourself and this is what you are battling with much, much difficulty....

EM please do not hurt yourself anymore......