Sorry i totally forgot i had posted here just gonna do this all in one post... soo...

Angelgirl, i certainly don't take care of myself (like all i've eaten today is chips) but it doesn't affect on whether or not i have energy. Cuz today i was at the stables and everything Of course i get a little dizzy when i exercise without bothering to eat

Sometimes, no i don't see her. I feel less bad if i don't. I pretty much pretend she doesn't exist.

Ryan youre too sweet i hope you feel better soon too.. Hugs sweetie!!

Wants2fly, no youre not hijacking anything, i know exactly what you mean. It's the endlessness of the need-to-do stuff that gets to me.. Like something as simple as cleaning, i don't even hate it or anything. But it's just so pointless doing it when i know it only takes a few days and then i have to do it again, and again, and again. BILLS!!! Theyre unbelieveble... If i have just ONE month when i use more money than i should, it will take half an year to get back on track...

And dayzee... I have no compulsion going on-line These days i don't even do that too much cuz it's just so blaaah.. I said i play computer games, i meant just a game, on cd, no on-line being required. I have no compulsion to that either, but it's handy, takes my mind of real life stuff and time passes by faster so i can go back to sleep. When i am tired like this i sleep A LOT.

Pheeeew... Totally got a fit today, i got a letter from the social insurance institute, they want me to do account (or whatever the word is) of my present income situation and they want like a gazillion attachments to it. That didn't bother me, i know everyone gets this every year, but what got to me was that they had marked me as a STUDENT!!! i am no frickin student!! I phoned my sister so i could rage about it to someone and she said that they just don't understand that someone is "nothing". Of their stupid choices i mean.... grrrrrr..... Then there was this whole another paper where i should clarify where i study and so on


aaaaaanyway ehheh.. my apartment looks like a bomb exploded here and i seem to compensate it by constantly cleaning the mice's cages instead