ktgirl you are not disgusting! you said that about yourself when you posted in reply to one of my threads... it concerned me.
you may feel disgusting but you are not disgusting, you are a wonderful girl who is fighting a not so wonderful disease... all of us here need to stop being so hard on ourselves...even though it is tough to do.
start small, you should try to take that word out of your vocab, and replace it with something more positive!

your bf doesnt want to touch you until you gain 10lbs you say, but still you want to lose. it looks like losing weight is doing NOTHING good for any of us here...
i wonder why it is so hard for us to accept ourselves and our bodies?