No, this is not "that kind" of post. but as the system works together more, the more they have the means to make decisions about what kind of life they want - or not - and how to obtain such means.
The system is tired of living life this way, having medical professionals tell us "there is nothing we can do, i have no answers for you, it is all emotional", and ready to seek a new alternative. Well, not new. It is an alternative we've considered for 24 years. and each year brings us closer to it. Each year we decided if we will continue, and each year we manage to scrape up a reason. But we are done with reasons that do nothing and answers that solve nothing.
We are collectively done. NOthing can be done yet, the means are not here. It has to be carefully decided and planned out. It must be careful and thorough. We may not even have the means for several years. But this life cannot go on this way. This is not to frighten nor seek attention. it is just facts. processing "out loud" and looking at the facts. the facts don't change. The facts say we already beat the odds by making it this long. The facts say it is time to rest at long last and enjoy. We are very, very tired.
If you love something, let it go. when it returns, it might return in a different form.