(((( hurtsme )))) I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. Do you have a therapist you can call? Or maybe a good friend or family member? We will be here to support you all we can, but I think maybe talking it over with your T or a friend would help some, too. I've been where you are. And while I can't say I know how you feel, just know that I understand and want to be here for you. I hope you start to see the light again very soon. Please be safe, and PM me anytime you need to... if you want to, that is. Take care.