(((((((((w2h, snowflakes, leslie)))))))))
ok - i am working on it. t knows now too and called me already. somehow having t know took some of the pressure off. i thought it would be worse to have t know, but it had the opposite effect.
we were honest and told her that the collective decision had been made to not continue, but that nothing would be done for quite some time. t said she'd help me with pain management and we'd start thursday - that she helps ppl with pain management all the time. we were honest in telling her we didn't want to continue in life this way. we're not gonna lie about it. but also that the means to end that we do have are not going to be used. so technically we are safe at this time, if only for that reason.
in the meantime kiya says she will try harder to have us make an effort in doing the things she knows we's supposed to do.