((((kiya darling)))) - i know that feeling. i am feeling the same way - but like leslie said, it's a permanent solution to a temporary problem. i don't know what you want from life - but if you know there is something you want to achieve, even if its just the vaguest (and even more vague than that) idea of what you want, its worth holding on to.

we humans face the most peculiar, tormenting problems in our life (some more, some less - wish those who experience less were grateful - but those who experience more can be grateful too for it kind of puts us at an advantage in some areas of life)

waiting.. waiting is a very good option. i find the thought that i can call it quits any time i want, comforting. but every time i feel i should quit, i promise myself i will wait.

i don't know... this is all pointless rambling, i'm trying to find the most tactful thing to say to you, something comforting, something to give you hope. i may be naive but i believe out there is something... just... something... that was worth waiting for.

hold on to those thoughts of what you want your life to be.

very glad you are working with your T, and that your T is understanding. that's what she should be.

many safe hugs,
twilight