((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Kiya)))))))))))))))))))))))))))) I am so sorry for the pain you are going through. Sometimes it just becomes unbearable and hopeless. That despair is so hard to see through. I know the resigned feeling of this is right for me, I am so tired, it will be better. But, there are better times just around the corner and as you heal they will come for you. I am sorry it can be such a long journey but you will heal and be enriched for it. You can find the joy within as those parts who have suffered so learn the happiness that is out there in life for each of you. I know it is hard to even imagine this where you are at right now. But, please don't shut out these thougths. Just sit with them and as you continue working with your t let them help you heal from your past. Know I am here and I understand how you are feeling.

BB