((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Luce))))))))))))))))))))))) Everyone's path to healing is a bit different. Sometimes it takes a while for us to be able to grasp what has caused us to cope as we have. Please be gentle with yourself and in your time you will heal. I know it can be very confusing but you are trying to make sense of things. It will come in time. I am sorry it is so hard right now.

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