SIgh.... the wishes for good didn't work.

My "mediation" is over... the hearing cancelled!

I'm too drained to discuss it much... my attorney doesn't get it (PTSD) though she thinks she does.

TO give a small idea of the day... my attorney bartered with items that the opposition had already agreed to in 2 previous mediations but they had not complied with... so for what they had already agreed to I had to give up stuff...

the mediator threatened me with ideas that gee, at least the opposition hasn't touched my pay... yet (which they legally can't do?!) and such scare tactics that work so well with PTSD...

I ended up with 4 things (again) they had already agreed to previously.... plus $12 a month towards something that is $70, a nutritionist CONSULTATION but NO treatment, and something the attorney was SURE we would win with the judge, so we didn't have to bargain but she did: my veneers. I had to give up past and future payments for many things, including vision care... even though I have not had proper help and had just gone to a new doctor who felt my problems are worsening and certainly due to the accident. Why why why.

I sat in my attorney's office most of the day, deteriorating by the hour but had no real sense of time. Long times alone though... found out when I was leaving, THEY had all taken a lunch break! (I didn't even realize lunchtime) and had not offered me even water all day.

I had to sign an agreement to cancel the hearing next week... talk about duress

I can't believe what happened... true to form of PTSD.

Thanks anyway, for the kind thoughts.