Hello, and welcome. You've come to a good place for support and understanding. I'm glad you've reached out for that.

I'm so sorry to read what's happened. I can't imagine what that must feel like for you and hope that you're talking as much as you can about it. It seems that you are.

I further can't imagine how horrible this must be for your therapist. She may need a long period of recovery and I'm glad she's taking time for herself. You'll all be in my thoughts and prayers.

I really can't begin to guess where your relationship with your therapist might go from here. She may be doing self-care for a while...allowing you both time to heal before you even meet again. That in itself might ease everything when you first begin to meet again.

One thing I can say is that I wouldn't make *any* big changes right now...including changing therapists. If you need to see one in interim, please do...do some processing there. You might not know how it will go until you're actually seeing her again, and very well might have to make a decision. It might feel for me that a disaster has entirely changed the "landscape", so much so that the path to the destination goal might change completely to where I'd have to find an alternate route. However, it could also be that the path I was already walking just might need to be cleared again...and I won't know until I actually begin walking the path again.

I would just suggest that you make no big changes or decisions right now. If, when you being therapy with your t again, it's not working, then you might have to find another "path".

Again, I'm so very sorry for your loss.

KD