Thank you for you posts of support. but i know i don't fit in here. nobody ever says to me hey if you need to just go ahead and pm me- they just say the same thing- we are here for you. And that is very nice to have a place where i can write things and vent and have other people post words of support but sometimes a person could use a little more than that. This is not a complaint- i do appreciate all of the nice things that are said to me and maybe when i'm not quite so depressed i won't have a problem talking to my animals and having them give those confused looks. And i know that i am new here so most of you don't know me so you probably don't want me to PM you and that is fine. unfortunately my computer won't let me into the chat so all i can do is post. Anyway thank you for your kind words of encouragement.