after a long time, couldnt take any more. gave in. i felt better for the brief moment then instant guily and shame took over. why???? nothing really was different. just couldnt fight the constant urges. was real weak . i lost myself. therapy just isnt happening fast enough. 1 or 2 visits a month with a social worker isnt enough. cant get to know her.all we did is the intake so far. i started in aug. have only seen her twice. im getting more desperate.now i added another scar after all that time im just a weak looser. why fight now?????
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