So sometimes when people tell me that they have been doing like...drugs, or drinking, or having sex or whatever, I get really angry or so upset that I feel like crying. It's almost like an yicky feeling, and I've noticed that I get a similar feeling yicky feeling when I give blood. However the icky feeling is NOT the same as the anger, lol I have never gotten angry giving blood

Recently I started drinking, and I realized I was doing it because it felt so naughty to me, I just craved it. I was almost borderline alcoholic.

I'm just wondering why I do this, because I get almost rabid and I feel like a ***** when I get that way. I've alienated people because I was so angry about their actions. It's almost like, "how dare you!" sort of a thing, and it's painful because I don't know why I get SOOOOOOO touchy about it.