((((kiya darling)))) - i know that feeling. i am feeling the same way - but like leslie said, it's a permanent solution to a temporary problem. i don't know what you want from life - but if you know there is something you want to achieve, even if its just the vaguest (and even more vague than that) idea of what you want, its worth holding on to. we humans face the most peculiar, tormenting problems in our life