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Originally Posted by chrise
after a long time, couldnt take any more. gave in. i felt better for the brief moment then instant guily and shame took over. why???? nothing really was different. just couldnt fight the constant urges. was real weak . i lost myself. therapy just isnt happening fast enough. 1 or 2 visits a month with a social worker isnt enough. cant get to know her.all we did is the intake so far. i started in aug. have only seen her twice. im getting more desperate.now i added another scar after all that time im just a weak looser. why fight now?????
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((((((((((((Chrise)))))))))))))))))
I'm so sorry you're stuck in the position of not receiving the level of help you want or need. That sucks. Is there any way to increase the amount of times per month you see her, or get a referral to someone else who can see you more frequently?
You are not a weak loser. You need to change how you see yourself, you are struggling, yes, but that doesn't make you weak - it makes you human. You aren't a loser, you're just trying to deal with things, even if the way isn't the most healthy - it just means you're trying to cope, and that's a good thing.