Thanks for responding everyone...

I'm really not sure that I cut because I didn't feel anything. Its true that I've been feeling a lot of pent up emotions lately and haven't been able to express them.... maybe thats why I did it? But I still didn't really express much anyhow because I nearly didn't react to what I did

And Christina... I think you may be on to something. I haven't been able to express myself for a really long time. When my aunt got sick this summer I couldn't express anything really because I had to put on a strong face for the kids. now I miss her more then ever and its really hard for me to be where I am... but I haven't really cried or even gotten angry about it. To be honest... I'm not sure how i've really dealt with everything I've been feeling. Maybe that was what today is about...

Maybe I should just tell my T about it. Maybe it would help for me to actually talk when I go in, and not just talk about what we're GOING to talk about in the future.

But then again... that could be bad if I told her.

What do I do? And its bad because.... I can see it happening again. I just don't care.

Maybe this post was pointless... I'm not sure there is anything anyone can say...

i'm sorry guys. I'll end here.