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Old Oct 19, 2008, 06:24 PM
skymonk skymonk is offline
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I've been accused of sending a hate e-mail to a mutual friend of my bf&I's. The e-mails are deleted&she couldn't even tell me what they said except that she was trying to break me&my bf up. She also said that I sent a chain e-mail about friendship following the one w/accusations. My bf&I have been having many problems because of my PTSD. He yells a lot at times&that's one of my triggers. I don't think I ever sent these e-mails. There's no way to prove whether I did or didn't or even the content. The e-mails were supposedly sent in August&I talked to her on the phone once in September because I forgot her b-day&she wanted to know why I hadn't sent her a card. The conversation wasn't inflammatory&I thought it was just another of our typical conversations-nothing wrong about it. I have no ill feelings for this person&have never said or written any of the things I'm accused of saying. I've asked my Dr&my chaplain about this...is it possible for me to have lost time&done it during some lost time? Both said "No". My bf says that he believes me&her-he can't be doing that because we're saying opposite things. I think my bf told her I was crazy&did it to calm the waters. He's now telling me that things are almost OK&not to worry about it. I don't trust either of them now. Has anyone heard of this happening w/PTSD people? My bf says he loves me&believes me, but I have my reservations. I'm really paranoid right now-I feel like I'm walking on eggshells all of the time because there's always something I say or do that gets my bf yelling at me. He always says that I yelled at him 1st, but I don't think I did. I was trained as a kid to never yell. It's not always that my bf&I have problems, there are lots of good times, but lately I'm always on edge waiting for the bomb to drop&this accusation hasn't helped anything. Can someone PLEASE HELP!
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I am a 39 year old female that is diagnosed with bipolar disorder,anxiety disorder and post traumatic stress syndome. I'm on disability and often have no one to talk to when I'm not feeling so good. So please contact me if you'd like to talk or share or vent. I'm listening!