Hi, It's ok, calm down. You're doing ok. Deep breathe, picture yourself somewhere you feel happy and comfortable. Deep breathe 3 more times. Think about a way how you can change yourself or get past the moment. Live in the now, not in what has previously happened. Try to be the row boat who is gliding on the water, not anchored to the sea bottom. Try different tactics about how to improve youself and to live past what happened and try your best to turn the leaves around. You should talk to your therapist because it will help you in the best and most professional way you can. Even if you don't feel that this is the right thing to do, you need to understand that what is in your mind right is sometimes different from what is externally right. Best of Wishes and I hope you understand and take my advice seriously. If you need extra support, you can always PM me anytime. I'm open to hear anything and help with anything.
~dance59326