I'm stressed out, actually more like annoyed because people just assume something is okay. They know I'm too nice to say no so they go ahead and do something without asking me because they know I'm not going to fight them on it.
I'll give you a good example. My sister has been in Iraq for 9 months. We haven't spoken or seen each other and she comes home next weekend. She missed my birthday so when she gets back we had planned to go eat. When we talked about going to eat we talked about it just being the 2 of us. Us spending sister time together but she just automatically invited the guy she's been seeing. I haven't seen her in 9 months and she is so much more concerned about him than seeing me. I know that it shouldn't bother me considering she's been like this forever but it does bother me and another reason it bothers me is because he was over there with her so she saw him to some degree. Yes, I know that they probably didn't see each other all the time and go on dates but still she saw him and yet its been 9 months since I saw her and her main concern is him. But my point is that she invites him without asking me if its okay because she knows I won't say no. I know how its going to be, its going to be her and him talking and me out of every conversation. I was so happy when she got back into the states and I couldn't wait to see her and hear her voice. I cried for her and worried about her. I prayed for her and wished that I could talk to her and yet she hasn't changed. Its all about him. The guy she is with. Yes, I get it. I really do. She's in love. She thinks he's the one and that is great. Don't get me wrong I'm thrilled for her. But now i"m hurt because I missed her. Every time the news came on and mentioned Iraq my first thought was her. But now that I know she's safe I don't even want to see her. I'm angry, sad, upset. All I asked for was 2 hours of just her and I. I don't want the whole day...heck I don't even want half a day. I just wanted 2 hours of me and her time but no asking for that and her giving me that is like killing her. She knows I'm not going to say no so she goes ahead and does it. Goes ahead and invites someone to go eat with us when she knows I wanted it to be just us. Yes, I know I'm probably being selfish, stupid, or childish but I'm hurt right now and I just want to scream and cry.