really?

I have been wanting someone to understand me for SO long!!! I feel like I must be crazy sometimes! Why is everyone obsessed with something so yucky? To make it worse, I felt bad because of my feelings about sex. I would get REALLY angry at people and I didn't exactly know why, I just knew they thought I was being a psycho *****, when really I was in pain and didn't want to be yelling at them. I had a similar stigma to drinking, in fact I almost feel my sex stigma is connected. I recently started drinking because I was getting sick of that stigma and thought maybe trying it would get rid of it...but it didn't. In fact I almost became an alcoholic and I realized it was because I felt naughty and craved that. I think I should see a psychologist.