Hi MrsLovett

I'd suggest just being as frank and open with your therapist as you were with us here today, scary as that can be in person. If you trust your T and have seen progress with him/her, then you will find a way to open up. I'd also ask your T what it is you are diagnosed with, and what your T's recommendations are. Does your T collaborate or communicate with your Pdoc? In other words, does the left hand know what the right hand is doing? I ask because you sound overwhelmed by all of this, and I think I would be too.

Nine medications is an awful lot for mental health alone; it's important to know what you are diagnosed with and what you are taking and how much. That way, you can evaluate what works and what doesn't, and discard what doesn't. A lot of times you don't need long-term medication for anxiety disorders (and they are usually contraindicated for the long-term anyway). If you haven't seen any real progress with your current T and Pdoc, I'd consider why that is; is it because they aren't providing the right sort of treatment? Is it because you are over-medicated? Is it because you don't see your T frequently enough? All of these are good questions to consider.

I would like to think that if I had Schizophrenia, my T would tell me. (and my T would). Take care!