I'm glad you were able to get out a little. You said your therapist called you back--will you be able to see her soon? BTW, you're not crazy to look forward to doctor's appointments. I look forward to them too. I think it's because someone is interested in caring for me, if only for a few moments. The way you described your feelings while waiting for your therapist to contact you after you emailed her sounded so very familiar. Hang in there, and do the best you can with what you have for now.