I had a message from the director responding to a voice mail I had left her. I remember making the call but I do not remember what I said. It was about 3 hours after the meeting and I was a mess. Anyway she said she was responding to my voicemail and said I was making a big deal out of nothing and all she said was..... She also said my super would be writing me a letter, oh GOODY, something else to look foreward to. She told me she wanted documentation of my "disabilities"

I returned the call and got her voice mail and said "Actually you said this and it really hurt my feelings, I went to great lengths to plan and organize blah blah and you tell me you hate it and It looked like I designed the space just for me". As for the documentation I will look at my ADA site and see what is required by law. Now that last sentence was me getting into a pissing contest and I don't want to do that.(though I bet I pee more)

My T wrote a letter and emailed it to me to approve or disapprove. It spelled it right out clearly. My doc wrote a letter supporting the T's letter and bringing in the back issues and pain meds. So I think I am covered, I am hurt, angry. 16 years at this work.

T says I overfunctioned for such a long time that they just assume I will continue. Great example, after the desk module was put together the phone guys came back and told me they had to change out the phone jack and they couldn't reach behind the module! CRAP! I told the director of my agency, the big guy, nothing was said or done. Fianlly I made a date with the phone guy and arranged to have a friend come help me partially dismantle the thing so the phone guy could get back there and he ended up being 2 hours late! Plus everything fell and I had to resort forms etc. So I come in today and my fax and second line is hooked up but it can't reach to MY desk so I have to get a 25 foot cord to run around in back of the module to the other side of the room where my desk is. All of this just to say what the hell is their problem? THEY SHOULD BE DOING THIS STUFF< NOT ME!

No letter yet and that makes me more anxious. The good thing is I have a great paper trail if they try to pull anything. Man I hate not trusting these people after having known my director and having a good relationship with her for so many years! And I feel hurt that she doesn't care more for me then what she is showing. It's always been yeah okay your kid died now your back and ya have to do the job or get out. Not spoken just hinted at.