Yeah, I know I should get some help. I am 16 though. My parents already went through a whole fit a year and a half ago when I SI. And they made me go to a consoler guy. I hated him so much. Sitting around for an hour trying to get me to say stuff. I didn't trust him that he would keep quiet, especially when he called my dad back there and told me to stay outside for like 25 minutes when I was done one time. And most the time I lied because If I told him the truth, it would have gone past the thing and he would have had the power to tell my parents, and stuff. And I hate my parents knowing stuff like that because they get all into it and overdramatize it and then they stare at me. And still today, my parents don't look at me the same, and I can tell when my mom looks at me, one of the other things i see her eyes do is look at my arms. So i want to avoid them knowing how i really feel. And I know i need to see a psychiatrist, thats something I would HAVE to do when i move out for college. I would be away from my parents with no way of them knowing.