You only get OUT of therapy what you put into it. You are the only person that can make it work, and relying totally on one person to "decipher" what you are trying to say, without putting any effort into it will only leave you feeling hijacked, to say the least. I learned that being more open-minded to the fact that I have no say or control in the fact the I have to deal with BP makes therapy a whole h*lluva lot smoother. The path to better mental health is paved with positive thinking and a more open perspective in dealing with the hand you've been dealt. You can't change it, but learning to accept it, and having the mindset that "I control my BP, it doesn't control ME" may help immensly in your struggle to be well.