Hope your hanging in there also and thanks for sharing your experience and advice! I think the only reason I've stuck this out this far is because I'm half way around the world and thousands of miles away from all the negative people in my life and even if I wanted to give in it wouldn't be so easy. I was getting desperate yesterday but feel more positive today and more confident I can do this. I think its easier to think and concentrate on staying clean hour by hour at the moment rather than panicking at the thought of never touching it again, ever. We're going to be settling down early November to find a job and somewhere to live so I think I may commit to therapy or something (as difficult as that would be) than rather than trying to go at this alone.