hi dance
i take your advice very very seriously
i don't have many people to give me advice
well i don't have any part from a t
no one who wants to really help me
i feel sad i have to pay for someone to hear me
that no one wants to listen anymore
that im a burden
that im a terrible friend
so terrible that im worthless
that it hurts so mcuh still
that they move on
but im stranded
with noone
that im sad
that im taking your advice
that its hard for my head not to take over,,,

that im concentrating on your advice
and on breathing
that im trying to let my head shup off

its so hard,....

i need to live in the now

the past is too painful

but it keeps rearing its ugly head and pulling me back down

that im so sad

that im a mess

that i want someone..anyone
to hold me tight

that i havn't had human touch for months

that i crave it

that i want to feel loved

by someone..a friend...

someone other than my mum and dad
who love me so much

that they keep me alive
coz i would never hurt them
that i would never devestate them
that i LOVE them

sorry....i go on and on and bout the same stuff
but it doent leave me...