(((((((((((((multipixie)))))))))))))
I'm so sorry you are struggling right now. It's hard when those around us don't support or understand. I'm glad you are finding support here. I think sometimes people just can't grasp what goes on for us. I know here, when things were very unsafe and rough, outsiders had no clue. I was saying that I couldn't handle things anymore and I really felt that, but the brain only knew how to survive and so on the outside, I was doing things and things were getting done and it was so contradictory. It made it very hard for people to understand what I was saying because my actions said other things.

Hang in there multipixie. It will get better.