some days its hard.

i'm thankful today. had a mamogram yesterday adn they only made me do it once, they got the clips on the first try and they didnt make me stay while they looked at the films and so far nobody has called back today

i got up this morning and was able to help my daughter get to school on time

i remembered a dream i had this morning

i got a call from a friend

its hard though becaues after a decade of working for a family they are gone for me now. i sit outside the window lookign in and seeing them gather. i'm thankful for my children though, i'm still allowed in the room with them so that's good. i can go and find myself someplace else to belong i guess but its hard because i worked so much for what i had but then it was taken from me or i gave it away or something

dont blink, the gods dont like it when you blink

its a pretty day today, the sky is blue and there is a breeze blowing and i am trying to convince myself its a good thing that i woke up today