did you not call because i'm a bore now? you know how hard i'm trying to not listen to what the voices tell me and to ignore them but did you not call because you ddint want to deal with that? i asked you for help and yous aid you would and i know you called today and i didnt mean to be so heavy. do i have to not be heavy to have you call me? its embarassing enough to be like this in the first place and to not know what to do about it and to have nobody else to talk to. it wont get better if i dont work it out and nobody else knows the environment that needs to be fixed and im sorry. i'll try to be good from now on, i'll try not to be a bore nad i'll be ok when you call. please dont not call me