I have a had a bad weekend and weeks with my family. When I read about everyone else and their familys it makes me feel like I am not the only one. I never saw my family on easter weekend because we are all mad at eachother well they are mad at me for expressing my self and i am mad at them for the way they treat me for expressing myself. i am not a kid anymore and i have the right to feel and express myself. and i have the right to express how i feel about the way some people are to me or my kids or others. well i did that. see my niece came over for the march break and she was to stay just until Tue. but she and i both wanted her to stay until Thur. she was going to ask my sister but my sister started to come down on her and when we drove her home Tue night my sister didn't say thank you or anything she was a ****** and i came down on her for that and for the way she was. i guess that was wrong to do. so the next two days i told my mom i was not coming because i knew there would be a angrment and my mom, sister and niece would have come down on me. my niece came down on me and said i am making the kids suffer because i was not going. i think i did everyone a favorite for not going so we would not fight. if i went and we fought then the kids would have suffer..so now we are not talking and there is more to this store too.
see for a long time i could not understand why my mom treated my different then my sister when we were growing up. i now know why. my mom cared and loved my sister more then me. you know how i know. when my sister's kids were born my mom had no problem going into the hospital but when my two kids were born my mom and sister had a problem about the hospitals and never was there after my girl was born. my mom would call me names put me down yell at me hite me but not my sister. she would yell and get mad at me for taking my sister places but not get mad at me for taking us places. when my sister was ripe by my uncle my mom made a big deal out of it but when i was ripe by three different men even my cousin my mom didn't care. when my sister got pregnant at the age of 18 i was kicked out of the house. when i needed help or a place my mom and sister made a big deal out of it but when my sister needed help or a place my mom didn't make a big deal out of it. when i was pregnant with my son and living with my mom because of my son's father my mom turn to me and told me to go and live with my dad. but she would not do that to my sister. my mom hates her son who she doesn't see over 10 years and she always says i am just like my dad but never says that to my sister.
my mom puts everyone down behind there backs but can not say it to their face. she always put my sister down to me but could not say anything to my sister and i know she puts me down more. when i did drugs and drink my mom made a big deal but when my sister started to do the drugs she didn't make a big deal my mom had a join with my sister for fk .......when i was in the hopsital for a month waiting to give birth to my girl my husband to be family was there and my mom and sister was not at all they made a big deal out of it because they had to watch my son because i had no one else and my son felt like they didn't care but if that was my sister o boyyyyyy my mom would be there......
now you know just why i am the way i am now..because of this and how i am treated....sorry....
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Love Debbie
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