i saw a tee shirt one time that said "family, can't live with 'em and can't kill 'em"...we can pick our friends but we cannot pick our family. you must be feeling really down over all that went on Easter. i'm sorry about how you were treated as a daughter...that really sucks. do you see a therapist? i went to a psych doc for 5 years and finally figured out that i could not please my mom...i'm a hard nut to break 'cause i truly believed that i'd do something that pleased her..........do you take ADs? is your husband cool and understanding about your family? you need an ally.....let us know how you're doing now.......pat