so, when i went to therapy last week we met hubby's new T. he actually brought his appt book into my Ts office so we could schedule things to save gas and make only one trip. trouble is, apparently he was in the office for about 15 minutes and if he walked into the room right now i would not know who he was. i vaguely remember being in the room and thinking i should be part of the conversation, but i didn't seem to have any control over my body, or brain. after he left i T asked me what bothered me about him, and i couldn't tell her. then she asked me something along the lines of where is the person who was here while he was. i am very confused. i know that i have appointments the same time as my hubby for the next 3 times, but i don't know what happened while he was there, or why. the conversations in my head have been getting louder, and i have been losing time quite a bit. my stress level has been off the charts the last 2 weeks too. i feel like my whole life has been a lie up to this point and i now have absolutly no control over what is left of it. i have no idea what to do. i have tried writing, but can't get anything to come out on paper, but i have also found odd notes on random pages of my notebook that i use to keep track of things that are in my handwriting but i dont' remember writing them or have any idea what they mean. i am getting more convinced than ever that there is more than panic disorder and ptsd going on here, and my depression level has gone way up too.

i don't know what to do.

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