dayzee. I'm sorry that you've had to deal with two suicides in your own family and your own attempts. (((((((( dayzee )))))) I also believe that all things happen for a reason. Like most people here, I've been through a lot in my life and I've yet to find the reasons for any of them. I know the reason is not always revealed to us but geez, there's gotta be a really good reason for all this continual suffering. Just wish I knew what it was.

Yes, it was sometimes, and I liked her idea too. I might just try that one. This time round I'm forcing myself to sleep so I don't have to feel the pain and it also makes it impossible for me to act on it. In fact, I'm really starting to now. I don't think I'll be able to do too many more replies before I totally fall so I'll most likely have to finish up later, much later, today.