How do I tell, this new T, about the alts.............
I know, that I cna't keep it a secret, and I told him on phone that I had issues with dissocation...lol...I make it sound so uncomplicated, but even if I wanted to keep Fernfox and Pip secret I couldn't, both are too vocal anymore...and I think this T would actually notice.

just, how on earth do I do this.....not just the T but just god, just everything, how do I breathe, how how how

Everything keeps slipping into random moments of pure chaos, it's like some horrible dance....

1...2...3....4..Fern.....1......2....3...4...Pip....1...2..3...4..Silver...and repeat

cycling cycling, in and out, where did I go, who is where now, why do I know someone one mintue adn then the next I am afraid of the same person unclear of who they are. I keep fogetting names and places...
friends come to me and ask me if I am okay, that I was acting weird a minute ago, and I say really?

goodness, I start out with a single question, and it becomes a page long rant....