digdug, first...I am so sorry that I misspelled your name in my previous post.

what works for me is knowing that as I'm ready then more knowledge will come to me...might be a tiny bit or a whopper, but when my heart/soul is fertile and questioning, I believe there is guidance coming to me.

I also believe there is a more gentle and loving place than where we are now...I personally do not call it heaven and I do not believe it the destination.
But I do believe we see and feel bits and pieces of its beauty many times.
Fact or fiction? Does it really matter? As long as we are not hurt by thoughts of it, it can bring much hope to our lives.