Well, feel free to keep writing here and talking about it. It's a good place to do so. I know how bad the guilt eats at a person. Been there, too. Hope you'll keep writing. Most of us make choices we regret in life and what's done is done. I've found in these instances it's helped me to pray and ask for guidance and help matters like this. I've been doing it lately, too. I'm also going to see a new counselor too for support and help. I hope you'll keep coming back and reading and posting. You are very welcome here and you are a worthwhile person even if you feel badly now.

<font color=purple>"Shared joy is double joy; Shared sorrow is half-sorrow." Swedish Proverb</font color=purple>