Well Ry, that's quite a lengthy list you have and I sincerely hope you're using it right now cuz you're scaring the hell out of me, especially with the last thing that we said to each other. PLEASE let me know that you're ok. I pray that you're are. I think we each had a hard time comforting the other since we were both in the same dark pit at the same time, both with suicidal urges. I'm feeling better today but certainly not 'ok' yet. I haven't heard from you yet and I'm worried sick about you. I pray that you're doing better. PLEASE contact me.