Have you thought about joining a disability support or activist group? Being alone with these feelings can't be good - and there are so many people who are dealing with many of the same issues you are. And many of these problems aren't just your problems, they're everyone's problems. How disabled children are treated in schools, in their healthcare, in accessibility and accommodations. It might help you to get involved with groups that know what you're dealing with and are working to make things better. Anyway just a thought. But you are NOT just your disability. It's obvious from your post that you're an intelligent, valuable, worthwhile individual who shouldn't be allowed to fall through the cracks because of a disability.