RA is being a pain, worse than usual. My joints feel like they are full of hot glass. Wrists, knees and ankles. My balance is off and trying to 'catch' myself makes it worse. My shoulders are useless, I can barely carry a can of pop, and I have no grip on top of that. Opening doors is next to impossible, going to the bathroom is also nearly impossible. I can't shower myself (not to mention I've almost fallen out of the shower a few times so husband says I'm 'not allowed' to do it myself) I asked him last weekend, starting friday, to help me...I didn't get a shower at all last weekend. So its been almost 2 weeks and I feel disgusting, and can't do anything about it. On top of all that I have a cold, over a week now, and can't take cold medicine--I'm allergic to the active ingredient in all I've looked at. Which makes me very wary of trying to even find a different active ingredient, I'm allergic to alot of meds and doctors sometimes have to take a minute to think of a med I'm not allergic to, to prescribe.

I just really hate my body, and what it doesn't let me do for myself, the pain it feeds me constantly, the hallucinations it surrounds me with, the paranoia that's always closeby. My 2 constant voices are being really annoying lately, and arguementative with me. They are pissing me off. I get weird shakes too, I always kind of assume its a pain response? idk for sure, though.

Tribal health is completely screwed up and I can't even see my rheumatologist, get meds for the RA--over a year now. There is also a complication with me getting psych meds, so I'm not on anything there either. This F'ing sucks. F'ing sucks. F'ING SUCKSSSSS I'm tired of this stupid crap

I guess this is just a rant, or something. Its not like something anyone here can help with