Jinny, I think you are a wise person.
I believe part of our healing is accepting that we will have days of peace, days of poop...
Sometimes we can head off a fall-down time by putting into place, and following them, the things that steady us. A varied support system, so to speak.
Yet there are times when nothing is going to work, and we start over again. I don't mean that to sound gloomy, it's the nature of being mentally interesting.

Being grateful, and sharing that with others, is a winning attitude...

Best wishes,
Cap