Tonight I have to go out and celebrate my Bday with 9 friends. I am going to look like I am having the time of my life....but in actually...I hate my life. I hate that my head tells me I shouldn't exist anymore. I hate that my thoughts always surround anger and hurt.
I want to be free from it. I only know one way.
I want to shut the world out...like I have for so long and just keep pretending I am healthy until one day...someone says...Wow, I thought she was really doing well. Let them believe it. Let them never know until the end.